I have believe in God already and I have baptism but I still can overcome the past of rape..I don’t know what to do anymore I feel so hopeless I know God love me so much but I can’t control myself not to suicide please help me
Hello, Polly, how are you? May Jesus peace and joy be with you always!
I feel sorry when I received your letter. Your past bad experience in the past seems to be a nightmare which bothers you until now. I understand that it hurts which cannot easily be forgotten. You said that you cannot overcome it and don’t know what to do… … but I just want to tell you: You are not hopeless!
As you said, you know that God loves you very much. But do/can you really experience His great love every day? It is not because you are worth to receive His love, but it is all because of His grace, His unconditional love—He loves you no matter how bad you are, how weak you are, how ugly you are… you don’t need to change to a level in order to be good enough to receive His love, but it needs your faith to know:-
Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God (John 1:12)… …you are His precious daughter!
The LORD appeared to us in the past,  saying:
「I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with loving-kindness. (Jeremiah 31:3)… … He loves you forever!
neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Roman 8:39)… … God is with you always, His love also!
Hallelujah! His love is so great that He will give you a new life when you come to Him (2 Corinthian 5:17)
It’s not your fault to be rape. So, the feelings, thoughts… all sort of things which would make you think negative (eg. You have no value, dirty…etc) is not true! It is Satan’s attack and lie—in order to make you go away from God!
Don’t give up! He understands all your sorrow and suffering! God is always forgiving sinners to repent; not to speak you are innocent!
I know that you are a baptized Christian, please do have faith in God that He is always be with you to walk through all the bitterness and sorrow and give you strength to overcome it. The scars of your hurt will become a mark of healing and grace!
Don’t give up! For God has never give you up! Let’s pray together:
My dear Lord my Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus Christ I proclaim that you are my father and I am your precious daughter forever, no one can take away the love from you, and I know you love me, walk with me in my life. May your Holy Spirit filled with me always, may your promise deeply moisturize my heart. In the name of Jesus Christ I order Satan’s voice to go away. Jesus Christ, your word is my strength, is my shelter, I believe your grace is sufficient for me to overcome everything, for I can do all things and make it possible with your power. Please heal my wound, take away my sorrow, fill me with your joy and peace. Thank you, Lord, for you are the way, the truth and the life, and I hand my life upon you. I know you are reforming and renewing my life. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.
Yes! Jesus is the answer, you are in His hand, stop doing silly things and suicide cannot solve your problem. Present (Life) is the precious ‘present’ from God! I believe you would experience His great love and have a turning point from now on!
Think positive, there are a lot of valuable things waiting for you!
I sincere invite you to call us at 8100 8012, and look forward to listening to you!
May Jesus’ love be your strength to overcome all attacks!